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Good morning . Well afternoon since the days are all the same to me . I find Sunday is the only day I can remember I think it's because that's when the crazyness starts. But today my plans my goal is to replace my bad Sunday with good Sunday . I find that's when I'm totally confused and scared because it's meeting night. Well I'm already getting dressed so I will not be late for my meeting like I am for all my meetings. And I think walking into a meeting late makes me look non responsible and that's part of my list of things I can change . I wrote down the serenity pray and made columns of the things I can't change and the things I can and how and to add them to my daily routine . This sound odd but I'm confused on wisdom I looked it up and still can't find a easy way to use wisdom on my new routine. See there are days I'm brilliant and it shocks me that when I look in the mirror and I see me . I find when I'm lost in the moment and confused that's why or when I don't look at myself . So can anyone give me some ex of wisdom and how I can add it to my positive daily routine
You said some days you are brilliant and "look in the mirror and still see me" I love how you worded this. Sometimes, we forget who WE are, because we are lost to them. I find some days are longer than most, and one thing remains unchanged. We are powerless to control anything other than ourselves. I wish I had the fortune of being a cure, an end to someone's disease. "I love her enough to..."
But then I see, it's not about me, or what I lack. When I look in the mirror, I try hard to see what's beautiful, and tell myself, "I am worth more than this." I can say it a hundred times, but time and time again has proven I am not enough.
I can only be enough for me.
Everyday I wake up and say the serenity prayer and think about every word that's in it. After a while I can think more clearly on what I will change that day...
God grant me the serenity to except the things I can NOT change
The courage to change the things I CAN
and the Wisdom to know the difference.
One more thing to say everyday.
ONE DAY AT A TIME
Don't even try to take it all on at once....you will fail.
(((( hugs ))))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
I understand . I always hated mirrors and advoid them for the fear I will see me for me. And I don't like me most of the days so I do advoid the mirror so for me to have to look at myself and say hey your name is rosemary you have 4 kids and you have lots to offer but offer the good stuff to me first before sharing it with others . This is hard for me to practice . I made a recording of myself talking as someone else seams strange but I tend to listen to others more than me. I tell myself everything good about me . And I play it when I wake up . When you lack so much self esteem it's hard to believe what other ppl tell you . But it's up to me to convince me I have self worth . As soon as I can get that in this head of minr I think my path to healing and dealing with crazy conditions will change .
I liked what you wrote. Wisdom has a lot of definitions. To me, it is in some ways the benefit of life experience. As I grow older, I have more life experience to reflect upon, share with others, and build on. I know more about alcoholism, codependency, raising children, being single, supporting myself and who I am and who I am not because of life experience - wisdom. I don't need to repeat a lot of those experiences because I've learned what I needed to learn. There will be more learnings due to new life experiences and I will become wiser as a result of those learnings, too, if I'm open to it.
Dear Rosemary I ask HP for wisdom and then I listen to the "Still small voice within" for the guidance I need. I read a great deal of wisdom in your posts and in your efforts to recover. Keeping an open mind also helps me hear and feel the wisdom from others words.
I like the lists that you are making and your attempts to change what you can For example planni g to arrive on itme to them eeting
Agreeing with Betty, I hear a lot of wisdom in your post! Your HP can provide nourishment for you even if you are in a wasteland and there is nothing to be seen for miles around you. Trust that you are on the right path for you. As far as getting to meetings late, yes you can change that and you're already looking at ways to be responsible for that and that's awesome! Hugs and love to you today!
you remind me of the little engine who said " I think I CAN, I think I CAN, I think I CAN"
well...keep working on you...meets....steps.....i hope u can find a sponsor if u dont have one, but nevertheless....I see a spirit in you...a fighter....one who isn't a quitter....i read your posts and i can see the fight and spunkiness in your posts....
so like the little engine....only YOU can say with alanon, and with your fighting spirit..... I CAN I CAN I CAN I CAN......and you SHALL find that better life u so deserve.....
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