The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
So I am going to get my mammogram today finally. It is not what I really want to do but in order to find out good or bad what is wrong I have to do it. The program is working but I tend to look into the future. It sucks that I have to get this done because as I look ahead I feel that my surgery 3 years ago may be reversed. I mean I already got that breast reduced & now I am afraid that the issue will cause me to lose the one that was worked on the most.
But I will continue to use the program. I was told to use the 3 C's on this issue. I didn't cause it, I can't control it & I can't cure it, right? Also, it helps for me to live the program one day at a time. I remember to make a call if I need support. There are also plenty of women up here who have had cancer & are survivors. I am not saying that I have cancer, just that I know that there is support here. And, my main supporters are women out there who are faithful members of Al anon. I can always count on you all to help me through whatever I go through from this moment on. Daily I need refreshing & moments of serenity. I spent awhile today & yesterday on my new swing that I mentioned before. It really can be a tool I use when I need to relax & experience nature through music & reading. There is something to be said about swinging. I may not be going anywhere but at least I feel comfort & joy!
So I hang on w/ both hands & use the Serenity Prayer. I know that my God doesn't give me more than I can take on. He always shows me a way out. I don't know how much I can handle but no matter what, I am not alone.
It's true, angels walk among us!! Thank you for sharing your experience, strength and hope in how you use all of your tools in all aspects of your life. You are a shining example of what well looks like. Fresh prayers for you my friend.
