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Life just keeps coming hard and fast, but I am doing the best I can to grow through it. I do not like when I feel so over stressed the natural ugliness of my thoughts and sometimes words. I have been short tempered and angry with the stress of kids, school and work, homework studying, life there just aren't enough hours in a day. I knows this will pass and I will look back and be amazed of all I am doing, but I want to love on people while doing it. Is this me being a perfectionist?
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
I can relate. Sometimes I feel like I have no time for my recovery work. Things can revert back. For me there is no easy fix. I need to focus on my program even for a few minutes in the day. Usually when I'm in the loo. Lol. Private moments when taking a sshower or whatever I say the prayer. Think about the slogans and try to cconnect with my hp.it helps when I have no time for me.x
Easy does it comes to mind for me, BF. When I'm thinking that everything depends on me and what I'm doing or not doing, I get scared and drive myself beyond my own limits. When I'm that stressed and that driven, I get short-tempered. If I ask my higher power what it is that has scared me so much in journal form, I can see what I'm thinking and use steps or slogans to change my thinking.
There is no goal worth my serenity or project worth my sanity. If I'm too busy to pray, do something fun with a friend or family member every day even if it is just sharing a joke or a song, relax and ask HP for guidance, I'm too busy and that's easily remedied. Pacing myself with an easy does it approach, helps me be the kind of person I know that I am underneath the burden of thinking everything is up to me. Believing that my job is simply to show up and do my best and leave the outcome to my HP, I'm a person I enjoy spending time with.
If I need medical care, I feel more at peace and trusting with a nurse that is at peace and trusting no matter how skilled she is. Maybe this school work is actually a practice session for you? Nursing can be a high pressure and high stress profession. Maybe learning how to pace yourself with an easy does it approach now is preparing you for the actual practice?
This is a great question to consider...addictions take on many forms. Perfectionism is one of my addictions and when I begin to feel short tempered, I do my inventory to see where it may be rearing up and why. Usually I discover that little voice of "not enough" lurking in the shadow. Take good care.....