Today I'm grateful for waking up and the suns out and my kids tell me they love me. My kids are my best supporters right now . My oldest came to see me she been staying away because she hates to see me falling apart. I never made it to a meeting like I wanted to . A stated he needed to speak to me very important . So I said ok . The meeting had started and I said ok what did u want to talk to me about? My A says oh forget it I'm all set now oh sorry you missed your meeting . I went up stairs to my room cry called my self a lot of bad names I was in totals disgust that before I met him I was strong didn't put up with crap spoke my mind freely and to think I went up in my room like a kid cryed locked my door and said this is not write I no why he so powerful . He eats my energy drains me and enjoys it . So today he came upstairs to have me come down stair to talk to me . He remember what he wanted to say. He said I. Wrote you out a schedule fir you to work on . I won't say what he wrote because it's belittling and not positive at all. I looked at it and lit it on fire and tossed it in the toilet and flushed and said . As long as I can talk here see and breath I'm the one who makes my schedule went in the frig grabed a wine cooler and opened it and took a sip and left it on the table . My life is important to me my health is a concern . His sobriety is his life . I no longer care about him or what he does . We are not compatible I don't even like him . I use to love him and not his defects . No one I been to as dr marriage Counsler and any one that knows me I stuck it out I gave extra chances . No more I'm past dam tired . I live in the solution that's how I see it now I need to remove the problem .