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Yes, I agree this Miracle in Progress Family is certainly so very special and holds a warm spot in my heart as well. Your growth, and your journey has added to this connection in such a positive way I am glad you are here and have shared the journey
My husband passed away when I was 46 and HP had a whole new adventure planned for my life. Just keep showing up, taking care of yourself with an open mind, trusting HP . I assure you have not seen anything yet!!
PS Jerry I am a Sad Giant fan today
-- Edited by hotrod on Monday 30th of September 2013 02:42:31 PM
Every once in a while, I take a look at the 'diary' of old posts and private messages since HP directed me hear in 2012. It is helpful for me to see where I was, the journey, where things are at now and through all of it....all of you. I wanted to take a few moments to just express gratitude for all of your thoughtful reponses, posts, honesty. It has all helped me so much. When I see that someone new is here for the first time with all the questions and fears I came with a year and a half ago I think, 'oh thank goodness you found this place you're in good hands now'
Today...the signed divorce docs are in attorney's office, we will have a court date mid January, and I have a mix of emotions. Sometimes sad--not second thoughts, just sad that our long marriage ended up here at a 'finish' line. ha Sometimes pure serenity- 'I don't have nights/mornings when I am literally crazed because I don't know where H is' I don't think I even knew how much that was taking a toll until it was no longer a part of my daily life.
There are things I can't help worry about sometimes..I will be 45 in 2 weeks, my life is starting over..NOW? I haven't been on a date as a single woman since 1990....what will that be? But I am getting better at handing all of that over to God, trusting that there's a plan that I may not be the director of, etc.
It's been a while since I've posted and wanted to let all of you know how much it meant to read and reread how I felt your virtual hugs and hand holding and genuine support through such a tough time.
When you get better enough to say "Giants" fan...you'll be there. Okay just kidding. You have contributed much to us and those who have come after you. I am one who is grateful and your remind me that the program came to mean not starting over but for changing lanes. I'm on the same highway in a different lane and a different car with a different driver; HP, with the different map. The journey has not ended yet. Keep coming back (((((hugs))))) ...and stay with the yanks.
Thank you all for your responses. For the Giants fans out there, my family is Yanks/Giants all the way, I just enjoy watching baseball a lot more (even this season!).
Hi Yanksfan, thanks for the update. I am 43 and still married, but there are days when I wonder what it would be like to date again. NOT something I would like to do at this point in my recovery anyway, so I throw that thought out the window quickly, LOL! Keep us updated on your path, we are always here to support you! Sending you hugs!!
...and stay with the yanks. 