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I am so glad you found us and reached out Your childhood sounds difficult and painful. There are many of here who can truly identify so you are not alone. Alanon is a fellowship of people who live with or have lived with the problem of alcoholism . Because of the painful events of this association, we too need a program of recovery Alanon is that program We have Face to Face meetings in most communities and they can be found by checking the white pages.. Breaking the isolation caused by living with this disease is your first step in recovery. You have made that Step
Please keep coming back and check out the face to face meetings You are so worth a happy life
-- Edited by hotrod on Monday 23rd of September 2013 12:56:27 PM
Since I was child I always experience of getting bullied off my childhood neighbors and also in school. I've seen my parents are always fighting each other. Maybe because my father is alcoholic. I remember the time I was walking home crying because of my cruel neighbors. They always called me gay but that's not true.When I get home my mother saw me crying and she get mad at me she asked me why am i crying then i told what happened then she hit me by a hard stick many times and told me not to play with them again. My parents also embarrassed me in front of many people. I was about 5 year old on that time. They never help me in academic subject in school although they are both teacher. I always wondering why is this happening? My parents never ask if i have a problem. or if I have they will just scold at me. I have poor grades on academic subject. Never been in a relationship ever since because i think that no one will like me. I always locked my room. Im struggling with so much anger pain in my heart and I feel I have nowhere to run to. I Still hate my parents though they change now. I'm so frustrated in my life now and I cant take it no more sometimes I feel like I want to end up my life I wish I Never existed in this world. I hope someone will help me and give some advice
You are not alone. I care. You are important. There are many others out there who care about your well being.
Please be sure to call for help.
There are alanon face to face meetings that may be in your area to attend.
These message boards have helped me.
The 12 steps give me hope.
With love and support,
M
Marko: I'm really sorry that there are people in your life or have been in your life who think its just fine and dandy to call you names, beat you with sticks, or treat you with any other kind of abusive and hateful behavior. This knowledge about the ways you have been treated makes me mad. I want you to know that NONE of how these people behave is your fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't let any of them convince you of this lie. Keep coming back. Many of us have been bullied and abused. We won't hurt you and we will help you know that you are a good, decent human being who can take good care of yourself without fighting back in destructive ways.
Keep coming back. Right now, things feel pretty awful to you, but that will change if you do what others suggested above. I promise.
I am sorry for your pain....hurt people hurt people; you did not cause them to mistreat you, nor did you deserve it. You have come to one of the right places for you to be. Next, find an al anon meeting and let your healing continue. Blessings and hugs.
Marko, you are not alone and by coming here, something inside of you that does not want to quit, brought you here....why let the abusers win??? I grew up inhell, literally....I refuse to let them win.....I got myself here..got to know me...and now I am different person.......i hope you will give meets, step work and slogan practice a try......this program can save you, but U want to want it...somehow I think you want it and that is why you showed up here....all the stuff u r describing, many of us had that and more......we are making it, so can you......this prgram saved my life
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
I'm glad you showed up here, that takes strength.. and a willingness to change your life for the better.
I hope you will search out a face to face Al-anon meeting in your area, you are not alone, there are many in recovery from childhood traumas caused by living in an alcoholic home, you will find many similarities with the experiences shared both at meetings and here at MIP.
You are safe here, thank you for trusting us with your story and I hope you will keep coming back
Wow, it sounds like you had it rough growing up! I am so glad you reached out and found us at MIP! There is hope for a better future and I do hope you can continue coming here reading and posting and find some local face to face meetings in your area so you can find the love we share in person. I am sending you much love and support! Sounds like you could use a virtual safe hug! (((((((((Marko))))))))))
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
Welcome Marko and thank you for reaching out to us.
It sounds as if you have had a hard time of it but also as though you (quite rightly) value yourself and your own wellbeing. It is a big step to reach out and I hope that you can see that you are not alone at all. It is great that you want to make some positive changes. These boards have helped me enormously, as have face to face meetings. Once again welcome, you've joined us on a path that is paved with care and love and learning. Take good care of yourself, you deserve it.
