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This has been a week of surprises I been on the good girl list . I'm appeasing my spouse I been in my new bedroom where I no I belong right now. I trying my best to get thru every day . I'm gonna keep this short . I'm scared . I went out to the book store tonight and was not home when husband came home from work . I did that for a reason my anxiety was high and I been dealing with so much stuff. My A is bitter and upset with me because I'm going to a Alaon meeting tomorrow like every Sunday night. He like WHAT I thought you stop going because I'm not the problem it's you and your issues PTSD . He said he had to plans to go out so I said ok I miss the meeting I can do it online or self read I will be fine . I said if you have a committment you need to go on that's more important . Then he toned his voice up louder and said never mind ms c have it your way . I have said nothing for this behavior change in him. The guys and girls were going to a bar and they are pressuring him to go and he said oh no wife has plans as usual . Putting the blame on me. I told this health 10 month sober A he can go he states he has no temp to drink but will feel bored and out of place . Then he decides to sarcastically pick on me . I will leave the dirty rest for my abuse hot line. He no I'm not well and he is adding the guilt to it . This is a no win deal here the questions are out of line I left the bedroom and went up to my bedroom and he started slamming things and name calling me. Yes this is a up and down sickness . I just want dam peace
As a former alternatives to violence case manager I would have you call 911 and then a womans shelter or family member and get out. Seriously and soon.
Ms C: When I stayed with my addicted abuser, who did all he could to control our finances, my comings and goings, and what went on in our house, I just survived. There was a payoff for me in staying with him. There were many payoffs. When the costs outweighed the gains, I found the strength I needed to say ENOUGH! And found the help I needed to make real changes. Talking about my problems and my x after awhile just helped me stay in the pain where there really was no healthy gain. When I really wanted to make changes, I quit talking and started truly acting in my best interest and in the best interest of my children. Much encouragement to you as you make the changes necessary to thrive rather than just survive. We all deserve to live in peace and safety in our own homes. And that peace and safety comes with physical changes.
-- Edited by grateful2be on Sunday 22nd of September 2013 08:03:30 AM
I am glad to hear Jerry say what he said to you. I had said in an earlier post he seems to enjoy torturing you, and I have wanted to say to you "GET OUT NOW".
I agree with the responses you've received. It may seem like an up and down sickness, but I'm observing a sickness of destruction that is growing and engulfing him and anyone near him. It is also an escalating cycle of abuse. Now is the time to swiftly move out of harms way and implement your safety plans.
