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I received this email from my son this morning - he has never opened up this way before.
Dear Mom, I am really sorry I made you wait, But I was concerned about my saftey and wasn't available on WED. I am very sorry that life sucks for both of us right now, but I am really hoping from our earlier conversation that your new freind helps you out. I know you are trying hard and it's harder for you and I don't want to be a burden I would rather be a provider because if I can finally make you happy maybe I will find some happiness myself. I love you very much and I am glad you have been there for me since you have been the only one there for me or even willing to talk to me. Please don't leave me alone. I need someone in my family to care. Love You,
He also called me to ask if I would be available tomorrow. He said if I'd like, we could attend an AA meeting together.
I loved my son so much I would do anything for him. I took in very email, text and call I got from him. When I see my son in recovery......on his own....is when I will believe. My son knows I will never leave him but he also knows I will not help him recover. I'm 110 percent in his corner if and when he's ready.
You and your son are in my prayers for a good outcome
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
I know these are just words and until I see action behind them I am skeptical. After all, he knows how to tug at my heartstrings. I'm not sure if he relapsed or not and I will not ask. That is his business.
Just hoping he is serious about recovery. Time will tell.
Good for you Rose. I have been so wishy washy in the past. Even with this not knowing where he is you would think I would get better at it. Him missing in action, he has done so many times in the past I can't count them anymore. If I don't give it over to HP I will continue to have fear and worry. Today has a day of listening to what I'm telling myself about what I have learned and I'm much better this afternoon.
I'm going to a Al-anon meeting tonight and look up ILOVEDOGS ( member of MIP Bonnie ) and see if she is there. I think it will do me good to visit many different meetings around the Valley of the Sun.
Take care my friend (((( hugs ))))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
I know these are just words and until I see action behind them I am skeptical. After all, he knows how to tug at my heartstrings. I'm not sure if he relapsed or not and I will not ask. That is his business.
Just hoping he is serious about recovery. Time will tell.
now THIS is a realistic post..........let the ACTIONS match the nice words...been there...done that w/ A's in my life...i wanna see ACTION and SUSTAINED good action till I believe any of it...yea, cheer them on, but at a distance, emotionally and physically, too.....they gotta want it bad enough (recovery) to pursue it and stick w/it........wishing you God speed
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!