I was looking at the posts tonight and saw the name Sick with Worry by rose (who by the way I am keeping in my prayers with the posted situation) .. As I sat here worried about not even sure what at the moment, it jumped out at me big time ! Sick .. I'm sick with worry, obsessing, fear, etc.. whatever it has been .. I'm just feeling the Symptoms of this disease; the feelings don't necessarily have to mean .. Anything .. they are Just Symptoms. I have enough recovery to know there is a reason I am seeing all of this and it's pretty much because I need to.  When I have days of what Feels anyway like regressing recovery, I can't judge it; I need to be Thankful for the Gifts that truly are in the making .. Even in This moment Right here Right now, I am in the Process of building More experience to be shared with others to give them potential future hope and strength; the same way their experience gives it to me. I can't believe how it took me Soo long to see the disease piece and now without being hard on myself or others, as in just saying, I see it Everywhere; it is No longer Hidden.  If only just for today, I'm grateful for being able to See it without fogged up lenses !! The more I am able to place it in it's True perspective; that it Really Is a disease, and  Accept it, the more it will Continue to lose its Power to Dominate my thinking .. Thanks for being here .. I know I will Never reach a place of perfection or knowing everything or ever get to the point of neverending joy and bliss, but I am genuinely thankful for the progress and for so much wisdom and sharing by others .. I have to laugh because I'm human (tomorrow night I could post on despair, but hey lol Just for today, I'm joyful to see another little piece of the truth. Even if it is in regard to my own Effects of the disease; the truth gives us a little more freedom each time)