The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I was thinking today (have alot of time to reflect while on vacation and don't have to think about work!) that if I had had never been involved with addicted spouses, and went on this message board, I would think all of you (and reading my own posts) were a bunch of cult, crazy people who need to get a life. When I think of how much pain, dread, anger, resentment, and depression I have carried around for years, I don't think I could have dug out of this hole without alanon. Thank you, Lyne
I'm not sure anybody other than us would be drawn to MIP, but if they are then our response is - all together now - "Your opinion of me is none of my business."
Lyne: You are showing so much good humor and health in your recent posts. I love to see this in you. I can remember when you hadn't even been to an Al-Anon meeting yet. Look at how far you've come.
-- Edited by grateful2be on Tuesday 27th of August 2013 05:40:01 PM
Sounds like you've done some serious reflecting which can only secure your actual experience.
I hear a lot of gratitude too.
I was at an AA Big Book meeting today on Step 3 and I was saying how I would involve myself with these people so I could create my own self esteem. I had a part too. Knowing that makes me less resentful.
At the beginning I thought on the line like this. I was sick but thought I don't need nobody to help me. Just need to be strong and don't go nuts like so many other do.
Well it don't work and I became very crazy with fear, worry and anger. Then I came here and was but on the right path to serenity.
(((( hugs ))))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Well I don't know about anybody else here but when I first came to Al-Anon I was a pretty crazy person.
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I am strong in the broken places. ~ Unknown
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another! ~ Anatole France
The al-anon program has given me a place where I can feel with others who have been through a similar experience. Somewhere I can go when I am sitting at home looking at the prospect of a lonely evening. Somewhere where people know who I am, and are excited to see me. A place where people have watched me grow in the last 3 years and I can contribute to others' growth. A place I can feel useful. A place I can contribute and a place where people notice if I'm not around. A place where I don't have to compete, where I don't have to live up to your expectations and watch you crumble under your own. A real place. A safe place. Most of these human needs are things I never had growing up. You wonder why I was crazy? :)
Glad you have time to reflect, keep the focus on yourself and share. That is how this program works.
I agree from the outside the program is difficult to comprehend. I think that is why we must really walk the walk and not just talk the talk in order to recover.
