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For starters I would like to say that I have been in alanon for 5 months not 2. I have been going to three meetings a week and the rest of my week is on here. I love getting on here and reading posts and finding new websites on alanon. I have done a lot of reading on this. I am praying more and talking to the lord more and asking for strength, courage and hope. I am not rushing this I am taking my time cause I know that it is important to truly know what it is really about and it is about me right now. I am doing my mind and soul and body a favor and becoming a healthier me. I keep my head up and sometimes I have moments of crying and asking god why me? But I take a step back and look at the realization I put myself here that is why you. It didn't happen overnight, it took years to get me where I am and it will take some years to make me whole again. I wanted to get some of this off my mind it has been on my mind a lot ... thanks tiffany
Good share, don't be so hard on yourself though. It's always good to take responsibility for where you are going but it's not always our fault on where we were taken. I am of course saying this from the perspective of someone whose father was an alcoholic. The man I had to rely on.
You are right, we did not get sick over night and it will take alot of hard word in the program to get well, BUT WE ARE WORTH IT!
Keep up the great work & Keep Coming Back:)
Prayers & Hugs!
Can't add much to Mimi's share, except to say "good job to you" and if my upbringing or marriages/relationships can "hit and miss" mess me up , then for sure, reason backs this up...for SURE..I can with a concerted, diligent, dedicated effort on me, overcome what was tossed at me....Keep up the good work
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
Tiffany: I love the committed effort you share about yourself and your desire to recover in Al-Anon. It's not easy and it makes such a positive difference. Good for you!!!! Healthy care for yourself is apparent in your thread.
Aloha Tiff...the translation for the first step is "Trust God" which for me became a practice step and behavior...I got out of my head and started to practice Trust...I acted as if and acting as if took me out of God's way because I was trusting that God was setting stuff up in my favor and then I came to understand that God was always setting things up for my favor. I just got scared and reacted and pushed God out of the room. Trust God is a do thing...don't fear anymore...keep walking the walk and Mahalo for brining you ESH here for us to work also. ((((hugs))))
