Aloha Family...just got in from  business part of which was (secretly) nurturing the child still within.  There's not much child there because of the program and so I used a proxy and didn't tell him.  There was this little guy in my garden this morning by himself, nice and quiet and still being a part of what was going on around him.  I saw the quiet introspective boy I use to be and so I worked and kept him in my vision.  He sat on the stairs that led to the garden and then got up and hung around the pipe railings and got up and slid down the pipe railings because that was what was available for him to do.  He spoke to me a bit, his voice was soft and gentle and I tried hard to hear as much from his as I could.  I hearing impaired and at times totally deaf and I didn't let that get in the way of hearing his body language.  He was comfortable with who is was, where he was at and what he was doing which now included some of what I do for my hotel client. I keep the garden areas clear of leaves and debris pluse.  He began picking up stuff; leaves and stuff by hand and taking it over to the container I use as I go along.  He was alone and suddenly I remembered I was once him and even looked like him some and I was a loner with the given nickname "the Lone Ranger".  I decided to treat him overtly how I wasn't treated when I was his age.  I didn't get a whole lot of affirmations and strokes for being around and involved when I was his age because alcoholism and lots of other negative unhappy things were happening then.  I decided to give this boy what it was that I wanted at his age.  Part of it was attention...I did my work and involved him in my process.  He had questions about the large pond and the large fish in it.  He gathered more leaves.  I guided his attention to this and that when there was time ...there always was time and so I would enter his space and leave it and then enter it again and leave again...trading information asking some questions and giving some answers until I had to break to another task and leave the area.  I was sooo grateful afer this event, this opportunity to do for the boy what this boy would have loved to have happen to him.   Wow Powerful, spiritually uplifting stuff.  Nurturing the child within thru a proxy outside.  This was consciousness stuff...taking the opportunity to "be there" for real, on purpose, in love.  I recommend it highly.  I know some of you are good at this so thanks for mentoring me.    ((((hugs))))