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((((Sweeetr)))) Wow girly...you are soooo growing!! Now you can do both sides of the fence where when you started you were only on "that" side. I love it cause I can do that too. You ain't bad you're having an invitation to relapse and it doesn't sound like you're falling for it yet. It's okay...the enabler in you is wanting to go back to old non-working behaviors and recovering sister in you is resisting and not wanting to have any part of it. "Nothing can hurt you without your permission and participation...You haven't given it permission and you are not participating yet. It's "YET" time. It's standing out there moaning and groaning and wanting you to come out and play and you're saying....NOT YET!! With more practice of your Al-Anon program you will arrive more often at "I've had enough...I'm doing something else". You go Sweeetr!! (((((hugs)))))
-- Edited by Jerry F on Monday 19th of August 2013 07:55:08 PM
I do good (real good) with me .. then lately ??? I feel the old "junk" about why?? and trying to understand why his choices are what they are .. I know his choices are his.. I know to worry about my own business... I KNOW all this .. I try not to think our family is second to alcohol ... UGH I hate I am giving alcohol (AH) that much thought in my brain
Im trying to reread the books that helped me in the first place..
So really just asking for a prayer and or well wishes to get me back on track ... weather I stay in marriage or leave ... I need to keep reminding me about ME !
Thx for love and support you guys give me !!
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..."expecting the world to treat you fairly because your a good person, is like expecting a bull to not attack you because your a vegetarian "
Please remember that alcoholism is a progressive disease. In living with this disease "Our thinking becomes distorted and we become unreasonable without knowing it. " Please try to increase your meetings, and repeat the serenity prayer often. I had to really" Quit taking this disease personally. My sponsor had me carry around a "QTIP" in my bag and when I wanted to blame him or myself for the disease I was to look at the QTIP. Reminding myself of the 3Cs also helped.
Even tho I don't any more have an A in my life, I can still slip...and did ..BIG time....now??? focus is back on me and progressing in my recovery....step 4 work big time.....its doable...hang in there
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
There was a song I used to parrot - by John Denver - on days like you are describing. I still sing the refrain although I learned this song more than 30 years ago. "Some days are diamonds. Some days are stones. Sometimes the hard times won't leave me alone. Sometimes the cold winds blow a chill in my bones. Some days are diamonds. Some days are stones. The face I see in my mirror more and more is a stranger to me. There is a danger of becoming what I never thought I'd be. Some days are diamonds. Some days are stones."
Recovery isn't linear. We slip. We get up. We move again. And some days are diamonds and some days are stones. But, we do progress one day at a time and each precious moment we use to treat ourselves with kindness and understanding make more days like diamonds than stones. That's my experience. That's my strength. That's my hope. I share it with you as gift. Keep on truckin' and believing in you.
You hear the whistle blowing at the train station and sure enough the crazy train does come around like clock work, but you get to choose to board the train or not. I think coming here and in hearing your awareness you are headed in the right direction. Sending you love and support!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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