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I spent almost all of last week entertaining the guy I met in Chicago for 3 days. It was probably one of the best times I have ever had with anyone - easy, enjoyable, never laughed so hard in my entire life. He is sweet and kind and treated me very well. He left on Saturday to drive to Florida and I was happy he came. He hung out with all my friends and they all liked him alot and he just clicked with my group so easily - like he had known them forever.
I start my new job tomorrow and I am really looking forward to it. I want to be there right now instead of my other job but the school is closed for MLK day.
I took a chance on a new experience today which goes along with my new attitude on life - be good to me, enjoy life and not let negative people get me down (i.e. My Ex A). So I went skiing today for the FIRST time with one of my friends. She tried to teach me to snowboard first - but I couldnt get the hang of it AT ALL!! I felt bad that she was trying so hard to teach me and I was failing miserably. So I got skis instead and wow what a difference. I loved it!! I didnt get very far - did the bunny slope most of the day and then got on the lift and tried one slope and scared the shit out of myself. But I really had fun - and we plan on going again!
It really is amazing what a new attitude on life will do to you - I didnt realize how much of my time was spent dealing with my A's issues - his problems, his bad days, his moods, his ups and downs. I have been so happy lately and having such a good time just living that it is quite a remarkable feeling - I am better off without him. Spending time with Chicago guy also helped me see that - there wasnt a down moment with him - no "I need to take a hit" or "I need a cigarette break" while driving - just free and enjoyable.
I went home to my parents house last night and my mother informed me that she has been getting hang up phone calls from my ex for a while now - all at about the same time everyday - between 6pm and 9pm. Thats the time I usually talked to him (either he was getting off work or I was) and I forgot that the day before we broke up I told him jokingly I was going to move back home so my brother can take care of me. Guess he took it seriously. I also got another hang up from him in my office last week. Its been over 2 months now - I am moving on and trying to REALLY enjoy the life god has given me. As much as I miss him - I know he is no good for me - and I dont want to answer that phone and have to be tempted with a romanticized life that will never exist.
So thats the update from me - things are a bit hectic, but OH so enjoyable.
It reminded me of the words to the song "Joyful".. in Sister Act: Boy, does it fit you!!!
Joyful, joyful, we adore thee God of glory, lord of love Hearts unfold like flowers before thee Opening to the sun above Melt the clouds of sin and sadness Drive the dark of doubt away Giver of immortal gladness Fill us with the light of day
Christy
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