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Whether it is good or bad, I am taking life very seriously. I can't go anywhere or do anything w/o feeling the pain of my mom's illness. I am walking around confused & I am actually getting enough sleep although I wake up w/ stress. I can't go on like this & I hope to find serenity on this forum. I need to see the love that goes on in this program. It is one of the only things that keeps me sane. I need to talk to my counselor on Weds. & really shed light on what is going on. I am scared! What can I do to stop this madness except pray? I am willing to go to any lengths to work the program & find what I need to just survive!
What a change from a few weeks ago when I had so many positive things to say. I guess I need some positivity from you all!
It is frustrating because I am going to lunch w/ my mom & I have to hurry to meet her expectations. No, I don't do I? Feedback is necessary at this point.
I will be back on here tomorrow w/ better news I hope. Even if it doesn't get better, IT WILL GET DIFFERENT!
We all need to self protect against those who have so much expectation from us. That it makes us act in ways where we damage ourselves.
If we are feeling stressed by what you feel is pressure from outside forces, mainly your mom, then it is up to you to respond in a grown up and mature fashion and self protect by detaching and making boundaries.
I have a very serious aura to me. It's because life for me has always been a very serious affair. I would take consolation in the fact you are a grown woman and can take care of yourself no matter. My AF was a single father. His decisions literally affected my life. I had to count on this man who seemed to care less about his sobriety and his kids well-being. he was all I had. I couldn't d!ck around and be irresponsible. if I wasn't responsible, than who would be?! lol
Certainly not the alcoholic. This has lead me to be very serious in all facets of my life. I used to try and fight it, but it's who I am ! Embrace it!
