I sure felt a lot standing & walking at the relay for life for cancer. I didn't actually participate in the relay but I felt like it was what I needed. My dad died of cancer. We celebrated his memory & I feel like I can let go of a little more of my grief. I can go through all of my problems or anxieties because of the Program of Al-anon. I am so fortunate that I can feel today & it is OK. My mom is still alive & as you know is suffering & unfortunately so am I. My sponsor told me that I didn't cause it, etc. She also said that to stay on my side of the street. I am trying but it is my mom & husband who are having problems--especially communicating & I am still in the middle of it whether I want to or not.

My mom is showing a lot of signs like she did in the past. She bought a car even though she had a perfectly fine car. To some people that might seem OK but she is so compulsive that it is very odd. I mean she does things that just to me sometimes don't make sense. I am not exactly sensible all the time either & I can relate to how she is because I have the same disorder. But, today so far I am feeling well. One day at a time.

Oh yeah, I think I mentioned a long time ago that I have been emailing my cousin for about two years I think & finally she called me. I had to almost beg her to call but I just wanted to hear her voice & know that she was really there. I haven't seen her for about 24 years. Anyhow, she is another one of my support systems. Bless her heart she is trying...

So, off I go to normal life on a Saturday. I am going to put my best foot forward & get something accomplished.

Kathleen