As Some Know Last week I Took a Trip on my Harley, and Traveled around abit, Not really knowing Where we were Goin, Or What we would see or where we would stay for that matter, I have to say, HP was GOOD! The Storms that were in the Area's we were, was all around us but by the Grace of God! We Stayed Dry, and when we Got to Our Unknown Destination each day, it would then DOWN POUR :) So we were Blessed...

I wanted this Time to REFOCUS on my LIfe, and My Choices for the Future, tho I'm not Much on Projecting anymore, I Do tend to be a Planner, or at least a Goal Setter! And this Journey really helped put that into focus... This Disease when Battling it All around Me, I Find quite a challenge, and sometimes I Just need to Break away from it ALL and Find the SPirit I Know lives within me, to be "Better, Of More Worth, Giving, & Serene!" Ever Since hearing the 12 Gifts, My Goal has always been the Find my "Happy Joyous & Free" Spirit, and this Program with its Tools gives me Just that When I Work it! :)

We Traveled up & Around Lake Erie, and I have to say it is a Beautiful Place, The Water So Blue, yet so Freeing, and HP's Presents was so Strong, the Entire Trip! Once we stopped at a little Road Side Picnic Area, it was so Nice we returned to it (3) times during the Trip just to Take in its beauty, and Feel the Pressents to Brought...

Our 2nd Trip there, was a Morning and the Temps were HOT! 98 Degrees, and the Humidity was Breathe Sucking, but at this Spot there was a Nice breeze in the Shade of the Trees Surrounding the Lake, and Most know that I LOVE the American Bald Eagle, it Reminds me that tho this Beautiful Bird was almost Extinct at One Point, It has Come Back Even Stronger then Ever, and its Spirit carries me from time to time, when I Can't carry myself... Well We Were Standing there, just Enjoying the View, and Watching the Seagulls and I was taking Pics of them Catching Fish just off Shore, and Up Above comes a Shadow alot bigger then a Seagull, and YES, there is the Bald Eagle, Souring High above, I got some Pics, but I was so Excited they Blurred some :( But The Spirit was still there ;0) I Almost didn't want to Leave in fear I would miss him, but just before Take off, I see a "Golden Eagle!" I have Never Seen one of these before.... EVER! And of Course just Put my Camera in the back of My Bike, but WOW...

Birds have always Lifted My Spirit, and Kept me Close to HP! All SHapes & Sizes, and they seem to appear when I Least expect it... But yet when i'm in Need!

Our Journey was one of Many Miles on my Bike, but we Still Took time to Stop and Enjoy Gods Art Work, One Morning we Stopped on the Ohio River, the Dew was still coming off the Water from the Heat, and I put My Camera to Work, and just Embraced the Moment, My Husband is One that Just Enjoys Sitting at the side of the Water, and taking in the Sights, Myself I Like to Capture those Sights, so as to Bring them Home and Remember their Beauty!

The Day before we Returned home, I went to See Family I don't get to see but ever few years, and my Cuz accually lived with us for 4 years when I was a Teenager because his mom didn't want him! So He became the Big Brother I never had, and we have Remained Close even with 300 miles between us... He Just Got himself a Bike 2years ago, and his Brother as well, and Our UNCLE Who just turned 69 got his First Trike THIS YEAR! (He hasnt Rode in Over 40years)  And I got to Ride Harleys with All of them! It was Such a Blessing from God, to share this Ride with them!

Funny how life can be at times! Last Fall I took a Class on "Decluttering My Home, Life, Mind Body & Spirit" and tho when I took it I thought it would be a Joke! But I Felt the Fear and did it anyway, WOW has it Changed my Life! It Pushed me to Start a "Bucket List" Persay... Of all things "Big or Small" I have "Dreamed of Doing!"  even if Out of Reach currently I was Told to Write them in a Book, and every time another Idea, dream, or Hope arrises, to Write it down! Well Riding Harleys with My Big Brother was High on the List, it don't sound like much, but it was Important to Me! And Because I Wrote it down! I Made it Happen! And I Can Now Cross that one off the LIst, and boy does it feel good!

This Journey to Recover carries so Much HOPE if I Allow my self the Chance to see the Gifts before my eyes... Its Easy to sit in the "Poor Woo is Me!" place that I am quite formilular with, its Hard for me at times, to GIVE MYSELF, what I Try to Give to Others, but this Program, My Program Family and Watching you all Chase your Dreams, Encourages me to Chase mine, and even if the Smallest of Hopes, Comes true! Then My Life is Still Moving in a Possitive Direction, and Much more in line with were I want to be, compared to where I can Easily get stuck if I Drift into Self Pity! A Dear Program Friend Once said to Me! Instead of Saying: Why Me? Say Instead... Try Me... God I'm Ready! And I have to Say, It has Helped My Recovery So Much! 5 Little Words that Have Got me thru some Pretty Tough Times, and Continue too...

My Journey Gave me back my Spirit, My Trip Gave me Back to My HP, and Allowed me to See that Even I Need to Step Back at times, and Realize i am Just as Important as those that I Love, and I Need the Nurishment that I Try to give to them on a Daily/Weekly Basis...

I have learned that Tho My AGram wont Get Better, I Can Still Love her Thru it! I Can Still be Her Happy Place when the Rest of the World Is So Dark... When I Returned Home and Went to her, I Found her in Tears... I was Heart Broken to find out that while I was Out of Town, She had (1) Visit the Day I Left & That was it! She was Sitting in Loneliness & Dispare, and I Felt Guilty for Allowing her to Be in Such a State! I First Must Say, I Don't Recall EVER Seeing My Gram Cry, even after Losing 2 Husbands, and Her Son, My AFather! She Held it together in front of us all! For Us! So To Find her In this State Upon Returning, It had me Broken for a Bit! That Night I Went to My F2F Meeting, and I Didn't Share about this, but I Sat & Listened... And HP Showed up as Usual and Eased my Broken Heart! I Realized I Can't be her ALL... I Can Only be a Piece of the Puzzle, Sometimes a Big One, Sometimes a Small One... I Can Only Make better the Moment that Im IN... Not the Moments I'm Absent or Unaware...

So... This Tues, is her 89th Birthday, and tho I Know she will not Hear from 1/2 of our SICK "A" Family, I Planned on Going down Early, Taking her a Small Birthday Cake, and Some Gifts, and if Weather Is Desent, maybe take her Out for a Bit! For Some Fresh Air... We Can't Do Much, but I Jus Hope It Restores her Spirit a bit, Kinda Like My Bike Trip did for me! My Journey is Far from Seeing the Finish LIne, but I 'm Grateful that the Winners circle is always there if I'm Willing to seek it... And she is Worth it & So Am I :)

Thanks for Letting Me Share (((((((((((HUGS)))))))))) to All

Jozie