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Lately, I have been hit up on w/a lot of CHANGE...and so far, I don't like any of them......Sister Gini obviously worse with her Alzheimers.....Moma Aunt Helen being moved out of her assist. living pvt. apartment to WHERE??? nobody has told me yet (as of 1pm today)
AND a client I thought I had "bagged" fell through...no answer to my 2 emails so I let go....
So far *change* has meant my butt being kicked....Not stuff I wanted..But really, not unexpected, with the exception of this client who "oh yea, U got the account, done deal" and then no answers to my emails for a status on materials I needed to clean up his books...
Ok, so the latest is below...............
Today when my aged Mama Helen had to leave her assist. living apt. to a memory care center (high class nursing home) I didn't know where she was b/c my cousin (her daughter, I am her favored niece) didn't tell me right off.. so today I am freaking out, wondering "where is moma???" well cousin called and we had a great chat...she told me the entire scoop...Moma is Alzheimer's and difficult so this step "down" was necessary to protect her.....Gone is her "live by myself" little apt....Gone is her roaming anywhere she wants to....Gone is her private telephone.....She is now living in a home w/a roomate, lockdown w/exception of the "play" area outside in the quadrangle.....and she is majorally supervised and watched over....
yea, shes leaving us, a bit ea. day........I am gr8ful, tho that I always kept up w/her and that she loved me and we enjoyed each other...I have no regrets...I was good to her...had a lot of fun talking w/her b4 she began to "slip" a bit each day....
She remembered me 2nite when I callled her...she was unhappy to be there so I kept changing the subject to happier stuff...It worked...I got her to giggle....
NOW, for me, I need to change the subject to happier stuff, this feeling victimized by life and circumstances is not looking good on me.....
Daughter #1 is getting skype tomorrow on her laptop that has the web cam so we will SEE each other when we talk...
Gonna swim with my new swim mates 2morrow and just take this negativity and check it at the door, walk away from the unpleasant......Can't do anything to change it so AGAIN....walk away.....
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
Your family means so much to you, N. I am putting them all in my prayers right now. I am also sooooo grateful to see your post and to see you so excited about your daughter's getting Skype so that you can both see each other. What a joyful reunion for the both of you. I'm glad you've decided
to let negativity drop from you like a wet, used towel and are going to spend some of your day in your beloved pool with new friends. I'm very tired now, so I will be going to bed soon, but wanted to get this out to you with a big hug, too. Your serenity prayer in action as I see it.
Your family means so much to you, N. I am putting them all in my prayers right now. I am also sooooo grateful to see your post and to see you so excited about your daughter's getting Skype so that you can both see each other. What a joyful reunion for the both of you. I'm glad you've decided to let negativity drop from you like a wet, used towel and are going to spend some of your day in your beloved pool with new friends. I'm very tired now, so I will be going to bed soon, but wanted to get this out to you with a big hug, too. Your serenity prayer in action as I see it.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((G))))))))))))))))))))))))))) thanks for the good night hug....Gonna hit the nest myself after a good soakie in the tub and gonna sip on a choc. smoothie..........see ya tomorrow.....Sleep well
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
