I am at the pool...Met another sorta cute guy and swam w/him...and met 2 young girls and had fun with them...

Also one of the lifeguards and I made friends

and with ALL of them I noticed something....I am not afraid or looking down when I talk to people anymore.......I actually , and this sounds weird, But I was happy to notice that I was actually LOOKING at their faces....shapes of noses, teeth, eyes,  ear pearcings, etc.....stuff one would think "well yea, you look at people"

But not me in the past...b4 program...I was never really present, or paying attention, in the very  now moment to the point where I really didn't "notice" the other...

WOW.....all these people, I am walking to my truck after swim and thinking   "holey moley"  another gift of program....I can LOOK at a person and not be afraid of being  "slapped for staring at me"  OR  not being able to look at them b/c they were so evil, I did not want to get sucked into it.....or EX AH #1 would go nuts when I tried to look at his face, like "don't look at me when I am screaming and abusing you mentally"   really..I developed this habit from childhood and marital abuse just "dont' look at them" so they won't get pissed even more

I am leaving that "home of horrors"  and AH marital craziness behind me more and more.....I am not afraid to really look at  and enjoy the other's face adn emotions and expressions anymore...