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Just when I think I am hot stuff, my HP shows me I am not. Like a fisherman, I bite the worm treat offered, get caught and the only way I can get reeled in and set free is to surrender...cause I am not the "big catch" I thought I was. So many opportunities to practice the steps and there is never any diploma because there is no completion. Yet, I am pretty darn awesome when I partner with my HP...when I do the we thing.
I am constantly reminded that this is a "WE" program. I know that when I say "I got this, I understand, this is Ok, it is easy" then my Higher Power steps in, shakes up my world and I again have to completely rely on HP. This has happened so often in the past I now say " This is Manageable today" and that is as far as I go. As I wrote this I saw that I am again back to my old behavior---- trying to manipulate HP
Just when I think I am hot stuff, my HP shows me I am not. Like a fisherman, I bite the worm treat offered, get caught and the only way I can get reeled in and set free is to surrender...cause I am not the "big catch" I thought I was. So many opportunities to practice the steps and there is never any diploma because there is no completion. Yet, I am pretty darn awesome when I partner with my HP...when I do the we thing.
LOL....LOVE the title of your post, haha yep....as to surrender, its kind of a triggering word for me b/c of the past, surrendering to more pain, but I use the word, just let it go...toss it off me...let the chips fall where they may.....put out good energy and I get back good energy.....I look within me for my power most high....this program is also my higher power...all of its meaning, its love, its tender power......and its my way of life....when I am getting all coda, I toss the fears off me by getting in touch w/my recovery buddies.....tuning into program..............NICE post,
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I am constantly reminded that this is a "WE" program. I know that when I say "I got this, I understand, this is Ok, it is easy" then my Higher Power steps in, shakes up my world and I again have to completely rely on HP. This has happened so often in the past I now say " This is Manageable today" and that is as far as I go. As I wrote this I saw that I am again back to my old behavior---- trying to manipulate HP
You are correct we never graduate.
WOW.....I love the "WE" program....and good ole humility......humility keeps me open to new ideas, learning and not on ego.........wooo I am seeing , too, I need to put the bridle on and yea, we never graduate..............THANKS......I needed to read this thread.........when I start thinking "i got my mud together" instead of saying "i am progessing in .............." I am in bad territory
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Second opinions count Paula...you can always go ask someone else what they think and hopefully if you find a really qualified co-de and ask them the question "Do you think I'm hot stuff" they may just respond "Oh yesssss" and there you go back into orbit. I love the post and all of my MIP family members rock!! ((((hugs))))
Well, Jerry, with the metabolism slow down my body now enjoys, I tend more to roll than to rock - unless, of course, I am trying to stand perfectly still.
And thanks for the post, Paula! Humility is a virtue that my pride often tries to defeat. And then, I slip into a muddy puddle of water in my good shoes and dressy clothes in front of the folks I just tried to impress - and HP laughs.
Well, Jerry, with the metabolism slow down my body now enjoys, I tend more to roll than to rock - unless, of course, I am trying to stand perfectly still.
hahahaha......good one, (((((((G))))))
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