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I'm sitting here at my 'puter reading bleary eyed with my left index finger bandaged and stitched. I posted H.A.L.T. earlier before going to work and made it to work without incident. After I got there I got incident. I was too Angry and Tired and miscued a cut I was doing to some detached ginger stalks and got the top of my left index finger really good. REALLY GOOD!! and went for help. Grateful for all of the help that came forward and also those who tried and couldn't stomach the site and blood. First emergency unit couldn't stand the blood either and so I got referred to the hospital emergency. I met alot of new friends during the foray and shared cheer and then when I got to the hospital the tiredness really kicked in to full fledged powerlessness and I had that helping me to relax. Got the stitches (eleven of them) and the tetnus shot and the extra wraps and such and went back to work and got even more tired if that was possible. I had an MRI appointment and fell asleep on the table. Thanked the gal for the tummy rub and left to get home to the pups 3 hours later than usual. Now their fed and I'm fed and I'm tired with my PTSD still raging because a new's clip of a police assault triggered me.
There is no active alcoholic/addict in my life today and I'm still overjoyed and grateful for the tools of the program. Don't pay attention to H.A.L.T.?....you can get really HURT. It will heal...it always does. HP did a good job on this body. Gonna go do some Rest and Acceptance work. Thanks for letting me share. (((((hugs)))))
11 stitches to the top of a finger!!!! Yes, my friend, you got it really good. This isn't funny, but it is in a way - that the first emergency unit couldn't stand the blood - oh, my - the jobs we think we're made for - and learn we aren't really - we have to grow into them. Maybe you were there first training exercise in "Get over it. It's blood. Deal with it."
As far as your PTSD being triggered by a police assault - even without PTSD - I feel the churnings of combined emotions when I see man's inhumanity towards man - especially when their job is to serve and protect - and their egos are raging out of control. The good news is - you've worked your program so that your triggers don't result in your being inhumane. If its any help to you, Jerry, I hope you know that you help to stop the beast from being released from its cage from within many people by working your program and sharing your story. We can only pray for the people who are victims of police brutality that we can't meet and support and for the police who are so burned out or simply police to hurt other people legally unless our HP puts us in a position to do anything to stop the brutality. I can't watch "Cop" shows that are so big in the states on cable TV. I ache too deeply for the people arrested and the police who arrest them more often than not. Keep the kindness burning, my friend.
I hope you can rest tonight without much pain. May your HP heal the wound quickly and give you peace.
WOW, bless your heart....ELEVEN stitches....OUCH......I can relate to the ptsd and being triggered....and like grateful2be says, I don't need ptsd to be pissed at a police assault....
I saw a facebook thingy, cops in ohio, I think, were bullying a homeless man or someone and this guy got out of his car to video them and they began to go after him, and cuffed him....his dog got out of the car b/c his "dad" was being cuffed and the cop shot the dog dead.....it was awful...I could not bring myself to watch the video...but I was majorally pissed....ptsd was , well, needing me to work my program
And yea, I don't have any A's living w/me or really near me, physically, but the world in general can be just as irritating if I let it get to me....I was always a solution minded person....will always be that way...instead of sitting and complaining, I want to take action...do something...even if it is a little, DO something...
so I network homeless horses on my facebook, I fight animal abuse and child abuse any way I can, I think doing what I can to take care of me and the innocent and vulnerable, even if it is only a little, with my financial position so tight, I feel better b/c I did take action in some way to help in my community......
feel better and glad you got help for your finger....and sending you healing energy for the finger to heal fast w/no complications
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Yikes, Jerry! Glad there were people there to pitch in and help. Eleven stitches is some impressive stitching! And hope you'll stay away from the news! Take care of yourself!
11 stitches in a figure? You did a good job...thank God you didn't take the figure off. Ouch
A holiday is coming up and a day to be grateful for. Independence Day......the day of liberty and freedom. Great day to relax, get plenty of sleep, replenish the body and enjoy family and friends
Take care my friend...
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A challenging few days you have had...HALT is a perfect combination of letters to have a think and a cup of coffee with Sounds like time for some beautiful chants. big hug
I am so sorry to hear this. I can imagine your finger is throbbing. I also really hurt myself deeply with not paying attention to HALT. When I first heard the concept I minimized it as that I was always in HALT anyway so what was new. I really had no concept of self care. I have to say it is still a great struggle for me. Thank you for your candid, compassionate share.
Hi Jerry
So sorry about your injury. Hope you are feeling better HALT is one of my go to slogans, helps me to remember to take care of me. Be well
Paris.
Sounds like time for some beautiful chants. big hug