I started my day with Step 3 and 11. I soaked up the beauty of the day - blue skies, fleecy clouds, rays of sun lighting up the tall, pink cone flowers, salmon, yellow and red tiger lilies in my garden and let the warmth of the air become like a blanket of comfort around me. I enjoyed meeting mothers and children who came to my office to volunteer or to register for programs and delighted in their different personalities and behaviors. I honored some boundaries of mine and said "no" to allowing some other folks in programs because of the responsibility involved that is beyond my abilities, desires, energy or tolerance level. I refused to let a credit union ignore our contract and dishonor its word to me. I spent time with my daughter and grandson eating the dinner she brought for me and chatting while my grandson mowed the backyard for me. I practiced saying what I meant, meaning what I said without saying it mean. I talked with my son and listened without giving my opinion unless he asked. I read more of the "Getting Them Sober" series. I let my cats rub against me, sleep near me, communicate with me - all in their own way and let their natural way of being bring me to a state of peace and stillness. I wrote a thank you note to a friend who took me on a long ride in the country in a little blue sportscar convertible that relieved me of all responsibility that just let me be so present to the experience that I didn't even notice that my deep, incapacitating fear of being in anything in wheels after my son's accident and coma not being operative until a friend pointed out to me how much progress I had made in riding in the front seat of a tiny car without any kind of negative reaction to it. I threw away a store bought cake that created a feeling of nausea and lethargy for me after eating a fairly large piece of it - accepting I can no longer indulge in heavy sweets that I once enjoyed. I refused to let folks' thoughts, feelings and behaviors today be my business unless it directly affected me or was asked to weigh in on it by changing the subject in conversation or changing the focus of my attention if I caught myself minding other people's business. I went to bed at a reasonable hour and slept easily and well.

-- Edited by grateful2be on Tuesday 2nd of July 2013 07:21:16 AM