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I had an opportunity this morning to listen, with complete detachment, to the chaos alcoholism creates in families.
I was in my bathroom getting ready to go to work when I heard my neighbor's car door slam, and a guy shout "F**K!!!!" at the top of his lungs. It alarmed me at first. I heard panic in the guy's voice and then some more expletives, and then I hear him apparently go to his house and yell "Why did you do that to my car, Grandma?!?!?"
I could hear total pain in this guy's voice, and then next I hear is Grandma shouting angrily at Grandson in what sounded like an accusing tone. I couldn't make out the words, but it was immediately clear to me that alcoholism struck again.
I immediately picture that grandson is out and about doing alcoholic things and grandma's at her wit's end and has sabotaged grandon's car in some way.
OR, maybe grandma's the alcoholic and messed up grandson's car.
It was sad to listen to this chaos. My neighborhood is usually extremely quiet, so to be greeted with shouting at 6 in the morning was quite disturbing. But I just felt sad listening to the pain these two were apparently causing each other. Both play a part in it.
Not sure where I'm going with this, but I'm just reminded again and again that alcoholism is alive and well in the universe, and I honestly don't think it's ever going to disappear. All I can do for myself is keep an eye on any parts I play in adding to another person's suffering.
When I have moments like that I just say a thank you to my HP that I am no longer living with active alcholism. I also say a prayer for those living with it.
Mandy
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"We are not punished for our unforgiveness, we are punished by it" Jim Stovall
Oh I can so relate to this post....Things are "ok" then BAM!!! an outburst or the other ramifications of the disease
Oh yes, Alcoholism and drug abuse are alive and well....I just say "thank you to the universe" that I am , yes, still associated with alkie relatives, but not wallowing in it...I have chosen to never live with it again, to avoid close relationships with it in that I take care of me and do not depend on a user/drinker
Drinkers and Users just cannot hold up their end in a healthy relationship..I want healthy relationships now..Wow!! Thats a change for the better b/c in the old days, I accepted it b/c that is all I knew...Substance abuse...
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
I really don't k ow what goes on in other people's lives. I do know what it feels like to me because if my own experiences. But there are a lot if sick people in the world. I am reminded that recovery is for those who want it. Sadly, many who need it don't want it.
this is where intercessory prayer in my part comes in. Every single morning. It's more powerful than we might think.
