Hi Everyone,

I missed my alanon meeting due tonight so I am posting this and going to call someone tomorrow from my group.  Last week the presentation was on the seventh step and the presenter said that she found that the primary character defect she became willing to let go was the fact that she did not acknowledge or have a relationship with her higher power.  This in itself kept a wall between her and others.  I guess I really have latched onto this this week because it made total sense to me at the time and now.  I am aware now of all the time during the day I donot acknowledge HP and find myself taking on loads.  If I let my HP in, I am more comfortable with others and assured that everything will be okay.  Easy to say this, hard to practice.   

Today, I found out that my coworker, who had left temporarily due to having a baby,  will not be returning.  The coworker taking her place rings all of my alanon/alcoholic bells:  codependency, focusing on her work not mine, detaching without love etc....I am terrified of working with her since my home situation is so frustrating too with a questionable using nonworking alcoholic. This is so hard.  I guess I can look at it as now never forgetting HP's presence by practicing this step more: Humbly asking God to remove my shortcoming of not recognizing him, each second of my day.   I know in hindsight things always are a blessing in disguise. 

Thanks for being here!!!

Therese