Tomorrow could be one of the best days of my life & living w/o fear. I am so glad that my surgeries are coming up. My eyes will be better than ever before. I am go grateful for the means to get the surgery. Never before in my life could I have been able to afford surgery at all. So, my dad & step-mom had to pass for this to happen as the money I am paying for the surgery w/ is from the sale of their house one of my childhood homes. I don't like the fact that we had to sell the home but because of that, I have the money to do exactly what I am doing. I couldn't be more grateful & knowing that my dad would've been happy for me for getting this done, I feel much more at ease. He would've been so happy for me & the chance to improve my future. I never really knew if he had anything to be proud of me for, but I know that he loved me even w/ all my faults & my mental illness & all the rest! Sometimes I feel like he just tolerated me at times. But, I am grateful that I had him for 45 years. I am so glad that I have had all of you to walk through my journey w/ as you know it is not the destination I get to, it is the journey I take. Maybe that isn't quite right but it is my truth & I will own it today. I am happy to be content in the journey too. All of you can relate to the fact that this Program works if you work it! Long term recovery for me doesn't mean I will be fixed or necessarily changed, it just mean things will obviously get different. I was reading the Courage to Change for today(I think) & it mentioned long-term recovery. That is what I strive for healthy recovery. Look up the reading if you need to; it is important for all of us!

Please bear w/ me as I go on w/ this time in my life. I am all over the place! At least I can see where my experiences can benefit others.

Like all of you, I am a survivor & a thriver.

Kathleen