The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I was awake literally all night tossing and turning with worry about my separated AH, who relapsed (again) this weekend and isolated himself in his apartment. I am always filled with anxiety that he will harm himself--he is filled with self-loathing. My entire night was spent flip-flopping between payers and worry. I was also worrying about, how will I make it through work tomorrow without any sleep. I literally thought, "I can lock the office door and try to nap at my desk from 11-11:30" and I watched the sun come up just dreading this day.
Low and behold, I am home with a sick child today! She is fast asleep--bless her sweet heart, but with a stomach bug that hit her this morning right before I had to leave for work. So, now I can sit here and read this board, read some Al-Anon literature, and get my head together. My house is silent and peaceful and I can center myself. I might even get to take a nap.
Give your daughter some "Hawaiian hugs". Sad about last evening and that is how it often happens when the alternatives escape us. Take care Sookie...HP has very large hands...go rest in them. ((((hugs))))
You know something that helps me when I am in that state is the serenity prayer and/or the gratitude list from A - Z .. when I'm fitful I usually can't get through the whole thing it's just enough to change my thinking which is a good thing.
I'm so sorry your little one is sick and so glad it all worked out so you can get some rest and do some self care!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I love the good that comes from the bad. Sad when they get sick but what a blessing when God removes the obstacles that prevent us from being able to just slow down some days. Enjoy your you time ..
