Give me strength not to inflict bodily harm on him while he is acting his dry drunk self!  That is how I'm feeling right now.  Yesterday was all about how he doesn't want to feel like this anymore and how sorry he is and doesn't know what to do...today it's about I don't see why I can't do what I want (not bout drinking we're having a cookout with family and he wan't to build stuff today that he doesn't have to and he said he was going to stay home all day....he left to go get wood) and I think your the one who has the problem you are too controlling bla bla bla.....all because when he said he was leaving to go get wood I softly said I thought you were staying home today, you've been gone all week (working and taking care of his dad) it would be nice for you to be home.  He came back with all I want to do is go get wood and you give me a f@*$!&%* guilt trip (not what I was trying to do) all this started from Friday when he got drunk after a couple of years of not having been drunk.  I'm not sure how much more I want to put up with I love myself and my kids too much and I've already told him I am there for him if he wants to get help but we can't go on like this.  I'm going to have a good day despite how he is feeling I have that right.  I don't know if he's trying to make me feel as bad as him or what but I'm not letting it happen I've come too far