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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Went to an open Alanon meeting yesterday (probably my 12th one) and while I enjoy being around all the kind people it doesn't feel completely right.
Then last night went to an Alanon adult children meeting and that felt much better.
i don't have an alcoholic child or spouse but as the daughter of narcissists who've sucked me dry of self-esteem all my life, the adult children meeting seems better.
But I found my solution in AAs Big Book and thats my main home Because its where I found God. There were other Alanon members last night who had also done that work. It was nice. The recovery is so expansive from that process And it's for anyone.
also I see that I've been trying to run the show and trying to figure out "what I should do" about my problems. God is in charge and I finally came back to a simple realisation of what that means. I don't have to go to a shelter or get a job or even quit smoking. I CANT do those things. God has to do it all for me - known now I know what my part is.
It is evident that you are working hard on recovery. I agree we must trust HP to guide our lives and actions.
I found that I had to do my part, by working the steps. When I let go of anger, resentment, self pity and fear, I could hear my HPs guidance , have the courage to take the actions and practice these principles in all my affairs as the 12 Step suggests.
Thanks. I also know that my parents are sick like me.
All I have to do is show up for recovery and be kind in the world. When my parents try to control my truth out of me again I will take the risk of losing my security, and ill be honest anyway. It's all they know to do with me, I understand it.
We never deny our Creator no matter what.
They may take the car and the apartment and kick me out but a) God will provide; and B) I don't think they'll strip me of housing. I think when it comes down to it they love me very Much.
In fact they just might respect me if I'm honest.
Enjoy your day Betty. Do something nice for yourself and watch for God's love for you in every tree and squirrel And blossom you see.
