The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I missed all the alanon meetings this week as I was taking seminars at the employment centre. Then Thursday I missed one of the seminars because my son wasn't feeling well and stayed home from school. So I rescheduled that one for the end of the month. I'm slowly coming to grips with how I will retrain and make some income to help support myself and my son because who knows what will happen with my spouse. He let me know he has no intention of paying me any spousal support and he intends to get a lawyer because I am the one in the wrong and it is all my fault because I MADE him believe there was infidelity by the way I was acting. That was Sunday. Yesterday I tried calling one of the alanon members to catch up, but never got a call back. This is the second time I've reached out to alanon members and got no call back. The other one was to a lady who had agreed to be my sponsor! I guess that's not the sponsor for me. Its been several weeks and no call back. I'm wondering is it me? Its hard. I've got no family in the area so it's just me. And some friends have kind of disappeared. I guess that is the way of it when you split with your spouse. I feel friendless and worthless (and its not actually true, people do call, and my dawg is damn loyal. You know what they say. Be the person your dog thinks you are.) But just now, I feel this. I'm hoping it will pass soon. I'm going to rent a movie tonight and get some rest. Tomorrow my spouse has my son for the day and I have signed up with an outdoor group to go for a bike ride. Maybe that will help. Until then I'm sending friendship and hugs out to all of you. So many hardships on here, keep well my friends, stay the course, keep the faith.
You to Forest...stay the course...Hang with HP and continue making calls. It isn't the ones that don't call back that count...it's the ones I've been able to hook up with. "Call the next one and then the next until you get someone to talk with"...one of my earliest suggestions in the first month of my recovery back in 1979. That and keep coming back....((((hugs))))
This is a good place to come for support. Keep reaching...when I get disappointed in people not returning my contacts, I have come to believe that my HP has intervened on my behalf. Perhaps HP wanted a more direct connection or the people you are reaching for are not right for you at this time. hugs
As Paula said, when I can't get someone from Al Anon on the phone I call someone else. I have 4 meetings that I rotate through and I keep all their lists in my purse just in case I need to call. I hope you enjoy your bike ride today, keep coming back!
