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igym I am at the gym cooling down on the exercise bike and reading magazines. One if the headlines jumped out at me. It said "stop faking it!" It literally stopped me in my tracks. Not for the reasons that were in the article. I don't think. I didn't actually read it. It stopped me because that is what I have been doing. I have been being OK. Taking care of everyone else to the point that I ended up in bed last night at 7 exhausted with a stomach full of nausea and pain. I Ann not talking to my recovered SO who deftly about what is going in with our son because I don't want to make him more reactive. I am not talking to my son who is struggling with addiction clearly about the boundaries I have for him staying with us while he works on his recovery. I have not talked clearly with my other son about what is going on. For me, this faking it goes back to behaviors leArned as an ACA. I abbot willing to backslidtyro that point. I need to journal and get clear about my feeling a c boundaries. I need to pray and find inspiration.
Jewel, you are on the right track. Journaling, prayer, reconnecting with your higher power, and going to meetings will refresh your soul and give you new connections that you need at this point in your life. I used to live by the mantra "fake it til you make it", I didn't realize how much hard I was doing to myself and my family by pretending and living like things were OK. It was super deep denial for me. Keep coming back! HUGE hugs to you today!
