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Yesterday I happened to hear a bit of President Obama's speech at the healing service for the Boston Marathon Bombings. He said, "scripture tells us that God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline." He was speaking about the fear that we have now as a result of this terrorist attack, but for me these words were a loud and clear affirmation of what I am learning through Alanon.
For years I have lived with a spirit of fear and timidity, in fact my AH and I used to joke that ours was a "marriage of timidity" because we are both so afraid of confrontation, both with each other and with others outside our relationship. Thankfully, now I am seeing that I have a spirt of power and of love, given to me by my HP, who I refer to as God. The challenge is balancing the power and love, and I think that is where the self-discipline fits.
Thanks for reading!
PS - hope this post appears on this bizarro board. :) I posted something a couple days ago that seems to have disappeared. No worries, it was a long-winded post, that didn't really need a response. More just electronic venting for me.
I know what you mean Paris, for me it feels like my spirituality door has been opened and i hear and see alanon wisdom everywhere. Its great when your mind is finally open.x
I love that verse of scripture. There is another verse that I read often that can relate to what you posted: "there is no fear in love. Perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment." That was so important for me to remember, that my fears were really a way of punishing myself and keeping me further away from my HP. Thank you so much for sharing.
Oh, and sometimes I do get that ghost board up at times. I guess I should read what's there, LOL!
I love your post. I still live with a spirit of timidity and fear but through reading this i recognise, I only live with it. It doesn't live in me. I absolutely have spirits of power and love moving in and the perfect love doesn't come from me, it comes from God. (my hp with respect to all perseptions of hp). Thank you again. You and O'bama both; a little piece of my own personal healing today.
