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Today is 2 years my 19 year old step son was killed.
Instead of asking HP "why" I ask him to "help".
Ryan was not making right choices. His drug of choice was Xanax and Oxy Cottons. It was clear to me that his life was getting out of control. Death was my greatest fear for him.
Ryan was shot and killed. The only person with him when he was shot was the guy who shot him. Which is now in jail serving a 15 year term with a manslaughter plea. The guy who killed him was in possession of a firearm illegally. He was a convicted felon, 21 years old.
In my heart I believe there was a dispute over pain pills and ownership of the gun.
It's so very hard to understand why he had to die. It hurts to see the pain in my families faces.
I believe I have made peace with his death. I'm at peace that he is in heaven. I have peace in my heart that he is well and not fighting addiction. I have peace in my heart that my family will be ok.
I am so sorry Sincerely, you are in my prayers for continued peace. I have 3 sons and I cannot even imagine what a tragedy this would be for one of them to be killed. His struggle is over....my humble condolences to you. Oldergal
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I am so very sorry for this sad and painful loss. My son was also alone when he pased from this diesase. My program friends reminded me that HP was with him and he was not alone So please take comfort in knowing that Ryan was with a loving Higher Power at that time.
You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers today
My deepest sympathies and prayers for you and your family. I'm so sorry for your loss. I agree with hotrod when she says that Ryan was with a loving Higher Power at that time, just the same as he is now. I'm praying for your peace to continue.
So sorry, such a sad story. My son is 19 and also living a chaotic lifestyle. I worry this is his fate one day. My heart goes out to you and your family.
Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I'm so sorry for the pain you're feeling over the loss of your step son. I did remember you mentioning him and kept you in my prayers this week as promised. Although not the same as face to face recovery, we're an online family and do care. Sending you hugs ((((((sincerely))))))) TT
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