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Had a not so good weekend. I picked up my ODAT, reading the days I have missed this last week and pg: 103 says: Depair - how many of us suffer from it. Yet we do not realize that it is purely the absence of faith. We cannot despair as long as we are willing to turn to HP for help in our extremity.
How quickly I forget from day to day that I need to keep up and practice...use it or I will lose it...
I pray this week will be better and have faith God he will take care of me.
MIP thank you
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
The 11th Step assured me that if I prayed only for HP's will and the power to carry it out I would be taken care and given the courage, wisdom and power to live life on life's terms
I do believe my biggest stumbling block was that I believed that HP would take care of me however I was so afraid I would not get what I wanted most in life.
This is not an easy road and I am glad we are sharing the journey
Oh, Cathy, I totally get that. If I don't work my program or skip a few days of reading I start to slip. Spirituality is a living thing to me, it needs to be nourished, fed, and given tender care. So glad you came on to remind me of that today!
I am sorry your weekend was not so good and hope your week is better. Sometimes, it really doesn't take much to get snarly...now I know I have the tools to help me make good choices for me and I can really surrender and believe all is well more than I used to
I know exactly what you mean. Stop the daily reading, it becomes a week or two of not reading. Skip meetings for a week and I find the slope gets slicker and trickier. Have to daily remind myself to give it up to my HP and let him be in charge as I can not handle this on a day to day basis.
Thanks for the nudge. Finding a meeting for tonight.
This is the ESH we've always talked about in program from when I was a new crazy teenie weenie sitting at the tables and thinking HUH?
Thanks Cathyinaz because this is how it works in large part. I also learned from experience...when I stop the practice process I start the progression of the disease all over again. I can't, He can, I'll let him....Thanks!! got it again. Mahalo to all of you loving family members. ((((hugs))))
Awe, sorry you had a bad week. I had a few bad weeks and realized I too had lost my way and was not focusing on HP. I'm glad you are finding you way back so it doesn't turn into a few bad weeks.
Trusting HP and letting go and learning to be in the NOW was hard to believe for me when I came here at first. all a new concept of Life. But you are right when you say, practice is all it takes....sounds simple, is simple but we block our own way most of times...the good thing that i noticed, that once i dared to trust, wonderful things came along the way, the world opened up, and trusting becomes more and more a habit i believe in. i had worse habits before, i admit keep trusting, you are doing good....setbacks are part of the journey, also in them I can trust now...they become smaller and less threatening though. in support
I remind myself everyday that this isnt some kind of mental diet that i can go off of once i lost enough spiritual weight but it is a completely new way of living that most definitely does not come naturally. It does take a lot of practice but in the end it will become easier as HP molds and shapes me into the person he made me to be. May God bless you with faith, peace, wisdom, and perseverance. One day at a time, not just words or a slogan, but a way of living. Thank you for sharing.
