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my strength and courage definately comes from my HP
but recently, its also come from my aa husband.
Before family weekend I've never really been good at speaking in front of a crowd. So fear of speaking at family day at in patient treatment was pretty high. As well as, speaking at a face to face alanon meeting.
well last week I did both! AND!!!! At my company crawfish boil, when learning of speaking in front of the company about an incentive....I was not nervous when I did so minutes later after hearing I was going to have to!
its amazingly wonderful the people we learn strength and courage from!
There is a (somewhat accurate) old saying when it comes to the subject of public speaking....
"92% of the people fear & loathe public speaking... the other 8% are lying" :)
Good for you in facing your fears, and working through these issues.... it's so nice to come out the other side, and think to ourselves "wow, that wasn't as bad as I had imagined!"
have a great day
Tom
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"He is either gonna drink, or he won't.... what are YOU gonna do?"
"What you think of me is none of my business"
"If you knew the answer to what you are worrying about, would it REALLY change anything?"
Well done! In time, you may experience more that you will be grateful for through this hell and you may thank your husband for playing his part so well in your transformation. Our HP uses people to help us be who we were created to be...
Well done Sincerely, you are right we do get strength in places where we wouldnt expect it. I also think your strength lies in the fact that your post shows no resentment towards your ah. I have yet to get there. I have less and less but I still can't appreciate him for his part in my recovery. I still get nervous during f2f meetings especially if there are strangers there.x
Oh, I sooo get this! I didn't really have a HUGE fear of public speaking but speaking on the fly in meetings always was hard for me, especially the one where we get up at a podium and speak if we choose to. I had no problem speaking while sitting in a chair but put me on my feet in front of 40 people and I cringed every time my name was pulled from the basket, but I got up anyway. Actually, at the last meeting I had a woman come up and tell me that she loves it when I talk, she said, "You're always so happy, even when you talk of your pain." I also had another woman tell me a few weeks ago that I remind her of Phoebe from friends and I decided to take that as a compliment, LOL!
So glad that you see the blessing in this! You are growing and overcoming and that's what the program can do for us, in all programs of recovery!
