It's been a couple weeks since I've posted but I've been reading everyone's stories. So hard to see the challenges some of our Al-Anon brothers and sisters are facing. I say a prayer every day for our bretheren here on MIP and for those who haven't yet walked into the rooms.

Me - I'm doing pretty good - feel like after almost 8 months of pure insanity (two trips to rehab for STBXAH and being confronted with his affair, then the divorce proceedings), I've turned a corner and am on my way back to being myself again.

I feel like I need to make up for "lost time", after falling off the face of the earth for close to 10 years with the STBXAH and his crazy family.

Been having a lot of fun with friends and family. My BFF took me to a couple of concerts and to lots of lunches and dinners; I've had dear family and friends in town for a belated Easter celebration for the last couple of days and have had a blast spending time with them. Some other family members are coming to my house next weekend to help me repair the landscape irrigation system, clean out the rain gutters, make some minor repairs, and plant some flowers and vegetables.

Still taking good care of myself - taking it easy, lots of rest and healthy food. So far have kept off the 25 "divorce" pounds that I lost so I've been able to delve into the dark corners of my closet and wear some of my really cute clothes again. Going to work on the house some more today, pack up more of my husband's belongings to get them out of my space. My family has told me that if I don't feel like seeing him again that they will take his things to him. I'm grateful for that.

I've also got a meeting with my counselor later this afternoon and I'm looking forward to telling her I've really taken her advice. 

She told me that to improve my "BS-detector", I needed to practice my people-watching and listening skills. So I've been shutting up my big ol' piehole and quietly watching the world around me. Been a very enligthening experience and I feel I'm getting a lot out of it. People really do show you who they are, I've found, and I'm learning how to manuever around the minefields in my life by staying quiet and watching carefully.

I've found that I was really loose-lipped about what has been going on in my life and that I was sharing information with people who hadn't earned the right to hear my story. Getting much better at that now, thank goodness!

I've got an interview next week for a promotion at work, which will really come in handy financially, since I've got to figure out how to carry the mortgage on my house by myself. So I'd sure appreciate everyone's good mojo being sent my way next Wednesday morning!

Plus, my fabulous boss has found me a new office space that is away from some people at work who have been trying to sabotage my professional reputation (I don't know why, but I've been finding that the harder I work and the more successful I become, the more upset they get). What's up with that?!?

I'm very grateful that I can feel my heart and soul healing from the years of mental abuse and shenanigans that have dominated my life. Feels like I'm coming out of a fog.

In fact, a friend/colleague earlier this week told me he was so worried about me recently becuase it was like a dark cloud had enveloped me. Now, he said, "I can see you shining through." That compliment made my day.

I'm on my way back! Woo hoo!