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My adult son is going down hill physically and I can't get him to start taking care of himself by eating right and resting as he should. The years of drug abuse is now showing on him so very bad and I am helpless and I know it, but I love my son very much and remember the good times before drugs took him over. I want to scream, bang my head against the wall and say please, please, please don't let this be happening to him and to our family.
He came to my house late last night and I gave him a care pagkage of food, I didn't sleep well and woke up way before dawn shaking in the bed at the thoughts running through my head.
I need strength now, I need peace now, and a little hope wouldn't hurt.
Thank you all for the love and care you show here everyday.
Good Morning, I hear the heartache in your post. Be gentle to yourself. Trust in your HP. I pray you get the strength you need to take care of you and have peace. There is hope. With much love, Sincerely
I'm so sorry about your son. I agree with what Cathy said above. There is nothing you can do and you can't let yourself go crazy over this. But I understand, because I feel crazy most of the time. My AH won't quit using drugs. He's 30 but looks 40. I hope you can find some peace.
I am so very sorry for the sadness and pain that you are feeling. I know exactly how you feel and know that face to face alanon meetings helped me when nothing else could. Often I would just gosimply to listen , not share and it helped. I felt the love, compassion, and understanding of HP in those rooms and that gave me comfort one day at a time.