The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I haven't posted in a while because things at my house have been really really bad, and all week all I have wanted to do is come home from work and crawl in bed and hide.
Today as I was walking down the hall at work, I looked out at the sun shining. I began thinking about how we finally have a beautiful spring-like day. I am officially on spring break after today. I have two beautiful children that I get to spend the week with playing and enjoying each other's company.
I decided I need to quit feeling sorry for myself and quit dwelling on all the crap I am living with. It's time to seize the day...or the moment...and enjoy.
I don't know if I will feel this way later tonight or tomorrow, but it felt really good today and I hope to spread the joy to my children.
Who cares if the AH is lying on the couch in a complete depression because I have quit enabling his drug/alcohol habit. Who cares?! Who cares if he follows me around the house screaming at me telling me everything is my fault. I've been hearing that for years. I know it's not true I know that by next week at this time, he will hopefully be out of the house for good. I am going to just enjoy the sun and my children and pets and make the best of my life while I can. He can live in misery, but I am tired of him trying to bring the rest of us down with him. Maybe he will realize we don't want any part of his misery and he will go stay with his junkie friends...misery does love company.
Thanks for letting me share! Enjoy your day everyone!!!
Sooo glad you shared and you are right to take care of you!!! If it's good for you, it's good for your kids and it's even good for the A .. even if he acts like the sick person he is .. that is not you!!!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
(((imom)))) Thanks for the message. You seem to accept the things that are out of your hand....and that gives you so much more serenity. Go for it, you deserve the best, you deserve to enjoy the beauty of the day....there is not really a reason to be down...those are mainly the A's reasons, and you finally let them where they belong, and focus on your own person and life. This is love. have a great weekend. in support