The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
My love is now out of rehab and in a few short weeks I find myself being pulled around in his wagon with 3 flat tires. Prior to his exit I was driving a car with 4 inflated tires, now true to form- I have allowed his games to creep back into to my center throwing me out of whack. Granted I am at least aware it is happening BUT not heathly enough to save myself from this pain. PLEASE ADVISE! PLEASE! I have missed my al anon house and very much want to come home.
Your alanon membership never wears out. Welcome back. Sorry you are having stress from the relationship, but you are always at home in alanon and folks are glad you are okay and glad to see/hear from you.
Glad to see you have returned. Recovery from living with the disease of alcoholism takes time and is a WE program. I tried to do this alone. I picked up literature, understood the tools. Lived one day at a time, focused on myself, prayed , trusted HP and found that I needed the fellowship of equals in order to recover from the insanity.
Please try to attend our on line meetings and a few face to face meetings in your community. It is in breaking the isolation and connecting with others who understand as few others can that we find sanity and recovery.
The doors of Al Anon never close! I'm so sorry you are struggling. What I've found is that living with an A(or recovering A) is a bumpy ride so the best thing you can do is put on that seatbelt regardless of how many flat tires you have. Hope to see you coming back often and please feel free to share what's on your heart! (((Newwoman))) Hugs to you today.
There!! I took the door of it's hinges and wired the light on. It's okay that you were back out there getting more experience on why the program is so important and under what conditions it has worked for you. Now you can share that process with us so that others might learn. I read your post and remember arriving at the point where my head and heart screamed stop!!! and I did. I just quit everything and stood in one place within the rooms and reached out to the fellowship and ask..."Can you help me please? I gave desperate a new behavioral form and worked on never leaving until I heard everything I needed to hear and then some. It's a jungle out there don't leave home alone. Welcome back into the MIP house and keep coming back. Let us know your experiences...what happened, what you found out and why you came back. I'm sure there will be others here who need to understand those experiences also.
So glad to see you return Newwoman. I have been coming to this board and lurking daily just trying to keep the sanity I had found while my AH was in rehab. Like you, I am feeling like things quickly went back to chaos. Hoping you keep coming back and have went to a f2f meeting. I have found a great local group. I feel its the only thing that keeps me focused. Wishing good things for you!
oh okayyy... here is another key.. put it in your pocket and don't lose it again! :) It will open up a new life for you, so you want to keep it close to you, and use it to come here every day.
THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! for never locking the door... I am not sure what is more insane- the drinking "A" or the recovering "A".... what a WOW this entire process has been. Thank God for this board and tums!
Something to keep in mind is the physical part of recovery is not the hard part. It's the thinking part that is the tricky deal. That is why I have to stay sooooo close to alanon and focus on how unreasonable and distorted my own thinking becomes and let the A recovering or not do his dance on his own. Hugs p :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
