The material presented
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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
First of all, I want to thank everyone here for being so kind and accepting! Oh, and most of all encouraging! It's just so great knowing that I can come on here, vent my hurts and frustrations, and I won't be judged.
After almost 7 months of separation from my AH, I did something shocking this morning. I realized that for almost 2 hours after I woke up, I didn't thinking about him or the alcohol or the deterioration of the marriage AT ALL. Usually it's the first thing on my mind in the morning, and the last thing on my mind at night. I woke up so refreshed and hopeful. The literal first thought that popped into my head was, "I want peanut butter toast and a banana!" Then almost two hours later, I thought to myself, "Oh goodness, I can't believe I haven't even let my husband cross my mind." No worries, no panic, no depression... nothing. Just relaxed happiness. I don't even know what to do with myself!
Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
I remember those thoughts and feelings!! Awesome they were...and I'm happy for you that you have had them also. "Free at last...Free at last; Thank God I'm Free at last" and then I had to learn how to fill the "free" time with growth events. Face to face meetings were the place for me to learn how. Happy for you...((((hugs))))
Inc12- Thank you for sharing this! I was in a similar situation, I live at home with my AM, brother and dad, about a week ago I completed Step 1, which was huge for me because after dealing with everything for the past 2 years I'm finally at peace and can learn to take care of me. Thanks for the inspirational post!
Then almost two hours later, I thought to myself, "Oh goodness, I can't believe I haven't even let my husband cross my mind." No worries, no panic, no depression... nothing. Just relaxed happiness. I don't even know what to do with myself!