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I made the decision to file for divorce, and for a Civil Protection Order. The CPO was issued, and still in place - just revised - both I and my 2 year old child are on it. For now (until we arrange visitation in the divorce), he gets my her every other weekend, entirely supervised by his parents, at their house. He has to stay at their house, get addiction/anger management counseling, cannot drive with her in the car, and cannot pick her up from daycare.
I waver, I struggle, I hurt. I feel guilt and grief. I feel afraid. I know he and his family are likely feeling angry (he probably enraged), judgmental and critical. How dare I air our dirty laundry, and how dare I call their son an abuser.
Right now I struggle with my child being there every other weekend - it is for 3 nights (though he only gets one supervised evening a week). While it's not a lot of time in a 2 week period, it is a lot for her in a row. Easter is coming up - and right now that falls on his weekend.
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"The first step toward success is taken when you refuse to be a captive of the environment in which you first find yourself."
Im happy for you that you have taken care of you and your child. Well done, it takes courage to make these changes and it is scary but there is also a feeling of relief that finally we have done the right thing its like there is balance back in the world. I suppose the next thing left to do is the next right thing. Take care and enjoy your serenity.x
I'm glad you were willing to try something new. Stay open to what the universe brings you. The guilt gets better. Be consistent with your actions now and just see how it works out. It takes two to tango so just keep doing your own progr of recovery not expecting overnight miracles. it's all you can do for everyone involved. God bless.
