The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am finding it easier when I go w/ the flow. Accept the things I cannot change, etc. But today I am feeling a little sad because my cousin in CA hasn't emailed me in awhile. I asked her for her phone number & I guess it was too many times. I am such a pushy cousin I guess. Anyhow, if she doesn't email me soon, I will just have to let her go. I guess just let Go & let God. I hope I won't lose touch fully. I have her home address so at least I can send her cards & maybe letters; especially on her birthdays. I already miss her. She & I are the only relatives on my dad's side that she communicates w/. Actually I am the only relative that she has been communicating w/ not even her own mother. I think I am starting to make more sense.
I feel really sad when communication is not working. I really miss my family but these days they are all busy & going their own ways. I am the only one that recognizes birthdays & special occasions. I actually have been giving gifts to my nieces & nephews since they were born. I love to give but never get much in return even thank you's. I guess I will always give from my heart no matter what. I am not the only one who recognizes birthdays & holidays: my sister does send cards to me!
My uncle who has never been up here from So CA is coming up on March 18th. He is helping my poor mom w/ work on her house that she is trying to sell soon but plans on leaving next year. I look forward to him coming but my mom is pushing the idea of moving too far ahead. I am already anxious about her leaving. But, there again, I have to go w/ the flow & not project; just live one day at a time as usual. I am fighting this! I wish I had a better backbone(if that makes any sense)? I need to remember to hold onto my serenity when it comes. Sometimes serenity is fleeting; it comes & goes. I am just glad that today is a better day--the sun is shining & I am experiencing a spring-like day!
So, here I am trying not to complain about things in my life. That was some kind of crazy NYR. I was trying to better my life at the beginning of the year.
I am just a work in progress; a precious child of God. I hope God continues to be patient w/ me & all of you, too.
Such lovely words. I like the idea of going with the flow, like surrendering your will. It stops all the fuss and you get serenity. Thank you for sharing.x
