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I slipped in my recovery today, and I know that, but I'm not sure if I feel bad about it, Or how bad i feel about it. My AH had another relapse today, after having had nearly a month sober, and I freaked out. I let anxiety, worry and dread take over Before I calmed myself down. Then, and here's the part where I think I stepped into his territority, I went down to where he was drinking and moved His car. I didon't want him drinking and driving - which he does when he's not sober and he binge drinks, making it dangerous. I thated him and told him what I did, and that was the last I heard of him. I'm doing okay now, at home and reading literature, but running over what I did and not sure if it was wrong or not. On one hand, I know I need to leave h situation and on sequences to him, but on the other hand, a dwi arrest would be harmful yo both of us. What concerns me the most is safety, we live in a college town with lots of pedestrians/bikers, and I just terrified myself thinking that if he drove, someone could get hurt.
I feel there is no right or wrong. I would do what I needed as long as it didn't interfere with my sanity. I would have worry more about not taking the car then going there and getting it out of the A hands. Now I can be at peace and let him go. Nothing more said.....
Take care (((( hugs ))))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Thanks for that, I'm feeling better about my choice after he came home (in a cab) barely able to talk and with what looks to be a sprained ankle to my untrained medical eye. It's not my responsibility to stop him, but I wouldn't want any innocent people to be hurt by his drinking had he drove. We'll see if ths latest chapter is the bottom that sparks his true recovery. I pray his higher power helps him, in the meantime I'm grateful to be alive, healthy and feeling relief from the anxiety. It is truly awful, as so many on this board know. Wht is amazing is hearing from those that have found sobriety at open AA meetings (i go sometimes with my AH) and from those alanon members who have taken hold of their own lives and sanity. I learn so much by reading here and going to meetings.
No harm was done, except maybe to you in the worrying. Hugs to you.