The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
You know that phrase in the closing that is read at f2f meetings, the part that says "sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly"? I found myself thinking about that during the last ten days visiting my family for the holidays. I had been dreading certain aspects of this visit, knowing how things usually are. I proved to myself one more time that having expectations will bite me in the butt, sometimes in a good way. Because this trip has turned out to be one of the best i have ever had with my family. They may not be changing, but I seemed to have forgotten that I am. And that's all it takes. sometimes. I actually enjoyed my time with my parents over the past ten days. What a treat. Yay Alanon. How did I get here? I keep asking myself. I'm not sure exactly how it happened. But it did, and I'm grateful for it. Happy new year everyone.
I so agree with you :). I don't think I have changed "much" yet someone will say how I seem serene in the middle of chaos and crisis and I am then reminded that this program is ALL ABOUT ME :) and nothing about the A's in my life over which I have no control.
I too enjoy my crazy family now and love them all despite their craziness :). Thanks for reminding me.
Maria123
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?