All I was doing was washing the dishes.  That's all it took to let my mind wonder into the land of "If I could..."  So in that thought, I am recalling the incident that went down this weekend.  If only I kept my mouth shut and didn't tell my MIL that my recovering SIL put their address up on social media, so happy that my recovering AH stood up for me with his recovering AB, upset the my AH said some unnecessary stuff to his AB about the Asil.  That's when the light bulb went off.  I am trying to figure out why...when they are trying to figure out how to live without a substance as support.  It is a huge crazy mess, but my GOD...trying to figure out a broken brain is useless.  I have been happy this week after only focusing on me and not what other people in the family chose to do.  That's on them.  I have a family too, and that's my priority...not babysitting others.  This stuff can make you mad if you chose too.