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The kids and I had an amazing day. Soooo much fun, it is nice to just let go of all this garbage and start living again. I know I get into binge thinking and that just really trips me up.
My daughter went and took her tennis lessons had a BLAST!!! She is getting signed up and thanks be to some very special people this is something that won't cost me anything at this point. She has not been this excited about anything for a LONG time and I am grateful that once again I pulled a rabbit out of the hat. This kid deserves a lot considering what she has taken on in her young life. I think that is every parents nightmare that the whole what has this done long term as far as damage to the kids.
While she did that my son and I got to go and spend an hour and a half together just hanging out and getting goofy. He is a nutter butter in a big way and it was nice to have some one on one time with him. I don't get to do that to often with the kids. My daughter will stay up later with me and we chat about this and that, that is also a rare time because of how tight the schedules are during the week. This is really going to work out nicely I think.
The best part is today is the first time in a LONG LONG time that I haven't been obsessing or as I call it binge thinking about this that and the other mostly the STBAX. I've got people calling me because they haven't heard from me .. LOL and UGH .. I mean that's on me not on anyone else.
So every Saturday we will be attending tennis lessons and hanging out. That will be a great way to break up the day and have fun. The kids right now are playing outside and it's what 35 degrees .. LOL. I love the giggling and the fun I hear happening. They are both going to be worn out. I'm way ok with that .. I need them to be tired big time!!
Anyway, I have a paper due and there is church to attend and I'm def fitting it all in this weekend. I need it and so do I. It was fun I got a lovely text from a girlfriend saying I was missed at the meeting today. Sometimes the best healing for me takes place just being. Today was one of those days.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
It would seem that life goes on and you have plenty to be grateful for. I wish I had 2 wonderful kids like yours. (I'm sure there are times where you wish you could give them to me also LOL).
Hugs Pink, and yes .. there are days I'd be happy to ship them south for the winter!! LOL .. I would probably go mad with what do I do with myself after about 10 hours. LOL!! I did forget to mention the renewed promise to myself that before my feet hit the floor to pick 5 things to start off my day feeling grateful for, 5 things at the end of the day to also be grateful for that happened and were God's promises.
I was laying in bed thinking about this AM. Soooo MUCH to be grateful for and I will be ok and so will the kids. I was able to get my daughter's trip to Washington DC paid for, so she's doing that as well over the Easter break. I did that myself. Now to work on something for my son .. I told him one sport and one week of camp this summer. He's over the moon over the prospect. I started thinking about the fact if my STBAX was living here how these things wouldn't be happening at all. It would be all about him him him. I really am trying to work on that part of the deal .. I have fallen down in the mud a bit .. considering what has been going on and feeling like a victim in the system, it is much easier to see that the wheels turn way way slow and I'm not the victim nor are the kids. I leave that for the STBAX to be and let him be bogged down with that lie.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
While I was sitting out in windy cold weather yesterday watching my son win his matches yesterday, I though of you! So glad she enjoyed the tennis. It's a sport you can play until your in your 80s!
I wish I could respond more but he has an early match and I need to go put on my face, LOL! Luckily today is going to be cool but not windy and drizzly like yesterday!
