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The manipulations continue, but I am staying strong, at least on the outside. I went to the dr. yesterday, having chest pains and tightness. I had a viral infection about two months ago that caused me to get pericarditis. Well, I guess it is getting worse again, maybe stress, anxiety etc. Ya think? I have to go for and ecocardiogram to make sure that is all that is going on. Anti-inflammatories for a few days and we will see what happens. I am glad that I went to the dr. The roller coaster I wanted off of seems to be on hyper speed with all the manipulation but at least I recognized that now. even though that makes me feel guilty. I want to believe him, but... well I am sure you all know...So I will pray for strength and guidance and continue to build support for me.
Thank you all for being there...
Oh yeah, I called the DR about the suicide threats, he never called me back...so if he starts with that again, I don't know what I'll do. I guess I can be grateful that at least for now he is using and approach I can handle.
I have the local mental health emergency line highlighted in my phone book in case I am ever put into that situation again. Also a friend who is a social worker advised me to simply call the police if my A threatens himself again, they know exactly what to do and won't be as biased as family members etc. It is my keep sane plan instead of running.
Good job of taking care of you by going to the doctor. You need to take care of you. I hope all is well soon with your health.
Is there a crisis line or a suicide line in your area? I know we have a number to call here if we have intentions of harming oursleves, but maybe you can call them and talk to them about what your "A" is saying. Maybe they can help? Just a thought.
Much Love,
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"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
Hi Confused , most threats are just that to keep control of the situation he is only doing what has worked in the past. This is a disease and it is disease that is talking at the moment. Stay strong and look after you.
He will go where he needs to go with out your help and try and remember that he too has a HIGHER POWER I always forgot that.
