Of course I found myself thinking my AH  can change but as with any expectation that leads to disappointment. After over 2 years off him being off drugs-he is still drinking so i dont call him sober even though he considers himself to be in recovery-he doesnt come home last night and I discover an ATM withdraw for $400 at 3 am this morning. Hmmm well dont need a crystal ball to tell me whats going on. Luckily I have long since set up separate bank accounts for us. He didn't even have $400 in the account, what he does is write himself a check for $400, deposit it, and then withdraw the money! I will leave him to explain that one to the bank. 

I really was starting to trust but this is a reminder that you can never trust the A, the disease is always there waiting. There was no reason that Im aware of that caused this, he has never seemed happier and has his business at the most successful its been, but again, there never is a reason. Im just wondering what his explanantion will be since in the past he always had an "excuse".

I've been off program for a while, time for a meeting and some reading to get myself back on track. I did manage to go to work and perform normally where in the past I'd be off looking for him, calling his cell endlessly, etc.  Although my intial thought is I cant live like this, and dont want to spend the rest of my life waiting for him to relapse again, I'm kicking him out, instead I am just going to take some time to figure out what my next move will be for ME.