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When I first started alanon, I was very skeptical of a higher power. I wanted to believe but I was sure I had to help control the situation. I have been praying and hoping and praying some more...even talking out loud to my HP to intervene before my A kills himself or someone else. Last night it happened. It was as bad as it Can get I think without a serious injury or death, thank God. I do not want to give details, but in the end my AH was arrested. He i was released today but is respecting my boundaries of staying away from me and the kids....so far. at one point today, he agreed to go to an inpatient treatment, but now he's wavering. I simply packed some essentials for him wort on a piece of paper I wrote the information of the center and told him everything is ready for him to go, including airfare. I wrote on the bottom we love you. I can do no more. I am letting go and letting God. I have to trust that what is meant to happen will.
"I can do no more. I am letting go and letting God. I have to trust that what is meant to happen will." Imom thanks so much for this reminder. I am sooo needing of it myself along with the patience which comes with faith.(((((hugs))))) Keep practicing.
Trust in Hp works, things will turn out just the way they should you will see.
When I was where you are my heart hurts so much but I trusted Hp and everytime my A slips I trust it is his journey with his Hp but I was in the way.
Today Like you I get out of the way and Hp does miracles. Take care of yourself extra meetings, phone calls to al anon members, reading, come on here get your medicine.
Sending lots of prayers and support, it really gets better, it is in Hp's hands. I agree with my whole being that now is really a time to put a lot of energy into you and figure out what you need to do in order to maintain your emotional and spiritual sobriety. Meetings make all of the difference in the world.
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo