So the kids are in rare form today.  I work with kdg kids all day, and they are acting better than mine right now.  Finaly come home start the laundry, start dinner, break up a fight with my middle son and baby girl...all in the mean while anticipating my AH phone call to see how things are going and feeling I have to be a ray of sunshine so he doesn't get "stinkin feelin" and all I really want to do is say today is kinda crappy, but I am managing.  Sometimes, I wish, I didn't have to pretend the day is going magical so other people (my AH husband) doesn't feel like a drink could make his day better....what makes my day better is when i am finished with chores and work and I can sit on the couch to fall asleep.  Just having a moment.  Maybe I can say a prayer to let my feelings of being streesed out extinguished....I'm done today mentally...but have alot more minutes of the day to go...Great here's the phone call...