The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Just a little note to share. When I first started alanon i was truely going to get my AH "fixed" was pretty sure they would have all the answers to fix him. When I went to my first meeting and was in total shock that they expected me, of all people, to do the same steps my sick AH had to do. I am very new to the steps and program...toyed with them for years but have only now started to fully engage myself in it. As days have been going on and my AH is on his 47th day of sobriety and sit here and wonder why isn't he bothering me that much? It feels odd??? I mean he really isn't bothering me. Than I had a moment to myself...Oh yeah, he shouldn't bother me, he owns his actions and I have been learning how to deal with mine in a healthier manner. We had a marriage counselor appt today and the counselor actually said we are both working our own program and is happy to see how we are supportive of each other in our individual progress. I really feel like I have stepped off the hamster wheel and walk a straight line now. Like I said before, I'm no angel and feel crappy about certain things and situations from time to time...BUT, with all that I have been learning I am starting to feel free. Does this make any sense or am I babbling. To all those that read this, thanks for listening and sharing some great posts...I try to read as much as I can, go to meetings as much as I can, and I am finally having some calmness in my life that I have missed for so long.
I definitely needed to see this tonight--about 1/2 yr ago I went to an Alanon meeting--broke down crying, certain whatever type of life of sobriety I had envisioned would never happen. Fast forward 6 months, my marriage nearly ended, we have lots of issues to work through, but the difference in ME is I am attending meetings regularly, reading, listening and learning from ESH such as yours.
That's recovery babbling...the part where the program starts to work because we are working it and we start living the surprise!! It's a consequence of the, "...it works when you work it" and I love to hear it happen just as much as I learned about it when I was working it. Yay oh Yay!! Keep doing what you're doing and finding someone new to give it away to also cause...you now know that it works and how. Oh and go get a hamster for the wheel cause you won't be using it any longer. LOL...loved the ESH. ((((HUGS))))
